I recently did exactly what Lauren Daigle sings so beautifully about in her song Trust in You.
I let go of every dream and laid them at His feet.
And I discovered a freedom and a hope I'd truly never experienced before.
A few months ago, I discovered the book I Don't Wait Anymore by Grace Thornton. The question on the back was about the only incentive I needed to pick it up.
Have you been waiting for life to turn out the way you expected?
If I was honest, I had.
In all my years of wrestling with God over my singleness, I hadn't realized just how tightly I was still holding on to my own dreams, ideas, and expectations for my life.
I almost don't even have the words for how good this book is. I've already recommended it to so many of my friends (and not just those who are single). I Don't Wait Anymore is a hope-filled invitation to freedom, an invitation to see just how big and good and wise our God is and just how great a plan He has for us.
In I Don't Wait Anymore, Grace inspires you to seek God more earnestly and to seek Him for Him — not just for the blessings or answers He can bring.
Her words are raw and honest, but also full of poetry and possibility.
The section that may have impacted me most was when she asks her readers to consider what unmet desires are hidden in their hearts.
She goes on to encourage them to ask this question: "If [God] never fulfilled that desire, would I be able to be content? If I walk a road where those things never happen, would I be filled with joy knowing I would get Him at the end?"
As I got quiet and good and honest with myself, I realized that while I had been living that yes on the outside, the answer was still a no inside my heart.
But there was hope.
Her next invitation?
To ask myself why God was smaller in my heart than the life I wanted.
And to ask Him to show me who He really was.
This beautiful book is a journey through that process, and I honestly can't recommend it enough. Grace brought me back to who God really is. She shook up the dreams and expectations I've been carrying around and woke me up to the freedom of true surrender.
And it was truly different than anything I'd ever felt before.
Because when God gets in our hearts and replaces our dreams with Himself, "our hearts become blank canvases where He can paint pictures of His love, fill us up with His Spirit, and change our desires and hurts from the inside out. It feels different. We begin to see Him write a new story. One with a whole lot of freedom."